You are so much more than what you have been through. Their greatest mistake is letting you come to the realization that you can survive anything.
I had anesthetized the pain and anger from my past. I’ve been mad at God, my parents, my elders, all those who stood by watching what was happening to me, and said or did nothing. Most of all, I had been mad at my decisions in EVERY area of my life. At the end of the day it came down to personal responsibility. What do I have control over? I control my reactions and responses to people, places, and things. I took a long hard look in the mirror and got honest with myself, “I am dealing with the pain! No more running, blaming, or hiding behind my pretty smile.” It was good that I experienced: neglect, abandonment, and abuse. The common outcome from all those situations was that they did not kill me. The details of the events do not matter as much as the lessons I walked away with. I walked away with a grater understanding of who I am, and now I know I can survive anything. I choose to take back my power by speaking encouragement to those going through situations of neglect, abandonment, and abuse. You have everything inside of you to get through it. You are not alone. You are so much stronger than you know. You will look back on this situation and see just how fearfully and wonderfully made you are.
It was because I choose not to give up on myself. I choose to love myself and all my scars life had given to me. I am not ashamed of what has happened in my history, it does not define my destiny that is waiting for me. Everything I went through has prepared me for the second half of my life. I have already taken down the biggest giants I will ever face. The next obstacles I face will have similarities of what I have already overcome. The pain and anger can no longer hold me hostage. I choose to feel and experience the pain and anger I had bottled up for so long. I forgave myself and those who played a part in causing the wounds.
It comes down to balance. Feel and experience your emotions, but don’t stay in them to long or you will miss the next great adventure life has for you.
I start my day with something encouraging for my soul and mind. Find what encourages personal growth in all wellness areas.
Be well. You got this!
Lessons Learned 